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Feeling good

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 03:56:39 GMT

Thoughts about the other night and finding peace. I'm honestly excited for xroads and seeing the fellowship is in good hands. As I've always praised the fellowship and always rant about the church. I am at peace with moving on with my life. I say this b/c I've been at CFC for about 11 yrs and am excited to see what else God is doing around the Berkeley area. God has built up my faith and knowledge to continue to grow in ways unseen yet. I have no regrets in saying any of this and am finally giving up to God what He deserves, not what I feel I deserve. I've held on to obligation and a sense of loyalty b/c it was all I knew and all I felt was right. I would complain and flip flop in my mind b/c I felt that If I did leave I was a "Traitor" and would feel weird to come back. CFC will always be my home and will always remember all that I've done their. I have no regrets about anything I've said or shared b/c God has done so much and I had to give back. I pray that God will lead me on and ask for prayers on the road ahead.

Remember I'm only a e-mail and phone call away (My Cell Phone is on FB). God Bless. -t

Never been so embarrassed until this night

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 06:17:05 GMT

Enough said. I need to put my thoughts together. -t

PRINTS!

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 21:19:43 GMT

As you all know (hopefully =) I am an artist. My printed work will be posted soon. Stay Tuned! -t

Lance Armstrong is Agnostic...hmm

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 06:49:15 GMT

He is agnostic, quoted as saying, "at the end of the day, if there was indeed some Body or presence standing there to judge me, I hoped I would be judged on whether I had lived a true life, not on whether I believed in a certain book, or whether I'd been baptized. If there was indeed a God at the end of my days, I hoped he didn't say, 'But you were never a Christian, so you're going the other way from heaven.' If so, I was going to reply, 'You know what? You're right. Fine.'" - Via Wikipedia

....... I have to think about this. I'll re-edit this post. -t

Psalm 33

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 07:17:12 GMT

This week has been pretty amazing! I must say I've been on fire for God and have been getting back into shape. I wanna hit 300 crunches a day in the next two weeks. God is and has always been faithful to answer my prayers and loves to surprise me. I've been reading 13 Psalms a day! I am still amazed that God continues to love and care for us and Save us. I'm SO happy for Jon and that his mom cam to Christ! I'm in awe of Him and for His Love never failing! All Glory and Honor to God! -t

Psalm 33 (New American Standard Bible)

Psalm 33

Praise to the Creator and Preserver.

    ¹Sing for joy in the LORD, O you righteous ones;
         Praise is becoming to the upright.
    ²Give thanks to the LORD with the lyre;
         Sing praises to Him with a harp of ten strings.
    ³Sing to Him a new song;
         Play skillfully with a shout of joy.
    ⁴For the word of the LORD is upright,
         And all His work is done in faithfulness.
    ⁵He loves righteousness and justice;
         The earth is full of the lovingkindness of the LORD.
    ⁶By the word of the LORD the heavens were made,
         And by the breath of His mouth all their host.
    ⁷He gathers the waters of the sea together as a heap;
         He lays up the deeps in storehouses.
    ⁸Let all the earth fear the LORD;
         Let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him.
    ⁹For He spoke, and it was done;
         He commanded, and it stood fast.
    ¹⁰The LORD nullifies the counsel of the nations;
         He frustrates the plans of the peoples.
    ¹¹The counsel of the LORD stands forever,
         The plans of His heart from generation to generation.
    ¹²Blessed is the nation whose God is the LORD,
         The people whom He has chosen for His own inheritance.
    ¹³The LORD looks from heaven;
         He sees all the sons of men;
    ¹⁴From His dwelling place He looks out
         On all the inhabitants of the earth,
    ¹⁵He who fashions the hearts of them all,
         He who understands all their works.
    ¹⁶The king is not saved by a mighty army;
         A warrior is not delivered by great strength.
    ¹⁷A horse is a false hope for victory;
         Nor does it deliver anyone by its great strength.
    ¹⁸Behold, the eye of the LORD is on those who fear Him,
         On those who hope for His lovingkindness,
    ¹⁹To deliver their soul from death
         And to keep them alive in famine.
    ²⁰Our soul waits for the LORD;
         He is our help and our shield.
    ²¹For our heart rejoices in Him,
         Because we trust in His holy name.
    ²²Let Your lovingkindness, O LORD, be upon us,
         According as we have hoped in You

Taking good w/ the bad

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 00:09:50 GMT

I think it's an interesting notion to consider the "good" and the "bad" things in life. You can't have one without the other and life is never one sided as much as we choose to believe not. I heard a lot of the questions over and over and I think I can come to a conclusion. Why do bad things happen to "good" people and why do some people have it so "good"? I think it all comes down to how you look at things. Bad things happen to Bad people and Bad things happen to Good people. Growing up all I knew was pain from family, "friends" and myself. I dealt with it by being bad and angry. I was a disabled kid that was overall good but was put in a bad/confusing/sad situation therefore lead to my hatred of self and of others. I had it "bad" and didn't care to have or want to any other way. After to coming to Christ my whole attitude change and I felt at peace with my life to come. I have it "good" b/c I choose to have it good and live for God.. I have it "good" most of the time b/c I choose to have an attitude that is mostly positive and try to present my best self. Of course life likes to throw in the "bad" and it throws me off but I try not to dwell in that too long. I tend to move on and move forward. Some people say it would be awesome to be rich or have a lot of money, yes it would be great but it also brings other aspects of our own desires present and upfront. I've been in the pit of depression and suicide and one day said no more. With the past behind me and friends buried and some in jail, I say what about them? Was it just bad luck? Sometimes yes and sometimes no. In the end we must choose how we will live our lives. One friend was murdered b/c she called her friend to fire a gun to scare some people trying to start trouble w/ her and some friends. Another murdered someone b/c they killed his cousin. Another was at the wrong place at the wrong time w/ people who were in a gang and got hit by a bullet. The choices we must face will either make or break us. You either learn to live with the good and bad choices or you just live for yourself and live and do with what you choose. "Good" and "BAD" happens to EVERYONE some more than others but they will eventually receive what's coming. We can't change the past but we can change the future and whats to come. What will YOU choose?

Young-Life Crisis

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 07:58:20 GMT

They say that people go through mid-life crisis's. I'm going through a young-life crisis. What the heck do I mean? I feel "OLD" after seeing the word "Prom" or I just used skype for the first time and the person on the other end saw a black box while I saw her clearly. I realized I didn't have the right cam....duh. My young life also refers to a friend from high school getting married. Keep in mind I knew girls in high school having kids and pregnant during senior year. I think this is good b/c it builds my endurance for the dreaded and beautiful children ahead. One day of course. My young-life crisis also refers to realizing the people I grew up with as kids are graduating College. Holy Smokes! Amazing. Life is really going fast. Praise God for everything to come ans for all the previous memories. One day at a time......... In the wods of Yoda:

When 900 years you reach, look as good, you will not.
-- Yoda

Live for the day and Live for Jesus young Jedi's =).

Thanks to Mohawk Mike for reminding me about this verse:

Psalm 51 (New American Standard Bible)

Psalm 51

A Contrite Sinner's Prayer for Pardon.

For the choir director. A Psalm of David, when Nathan the prophet came to him, after he had gone in to Bathsheba.

    ¹Be gracious to me, O God, according to Your lovingkindness;
         According to the greatness of Your compassion blot out my transgressions.
    ²Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity
And cleanse me from my sin.
    ³For I know my transgressions,
         And my sin is ever before me.
    ⁴Against You, You only, I have sinned
         And done what is evil in Your sight,
         So that You are justified when You speak
         And blameless when You judge.
    ⁵Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity,
         And in sin my mother conceived me.
    ⁶Behold, You desire truth in the innermost being,
         And in the hidden part You will make me know wisdom.
    ⁷Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
         Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
    ⁸Make me to hear joy and gladness,
         Let the bones which You have broken rejoice.
    ⁹Hide Your face from my sins
         And blot out all my iniquities.
    ¹⁰Create in me a clean heart, O God,
         And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
    ¹¹Do not cast me away from Your presence
         And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me.
    ¹²Restore to me the joy of Your salvation
         And sustain me with a willing spirit.
    ¹³Then I will teach transgressors Your ways,
         And sinners will be converted to You.
    ¹⁴Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, the God of my salvation;
         Then my tongue will joyfully sing of Your righteousness.
    ¹⁵O Lord, open my lips,
         That my mouth may declare Your praise.
    ¹⁶For You do not delight in sacrifice, otherwise I would give it;
         You are not pleased with burnt offering.
    ¹⁷The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
         A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.
    ¹⁸By Your favor do good to Zion;
         Build the walls of Jerusalem.
    ¹⁹Then You will delight in righteous sacrifices,
         In burnt offering and whole burnt offering;
         Then young bulls will be offered on Your altar.

Makes me cry

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 05:05:35 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wm--zCgQpp4

http://antipornographyactivist.blogspot.com/2007/07/jenna-jamesons-twenty-five-good-reasons.html

wow.....scientology?

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 09:00:04 GMT

really? Will F-ing Smith. SAD. People I can no longer respect: Jason Lee (WHY EARL), Sonny Bono (SAD =(, Beck, Bodhi Elfman, Jenna Elfman, Sofia Milos, Leah Remini, Giovanni Ribisi, Ethan Suplee (WHY RANDY). Its a sad day for me. Jesus is so much better. When will people learn? Don't get me wrong I love my Sci-fi but scientology? c'mon. They believe in someone who wrote science fiction novels.

From his wiki page: Smith has said he has studied multiple religions including scientology and he has said many complimentary things about Scientology and other faiths. Although Smith has said, "I just think a lot of the ideas in Scientology are brilliant and revolutionary and non-religious"and, "Ninety-eight percent of the principles in Scientology are identical to the principles of the bible.... I don't think that because the word someone uses for spirit is 'thetan' that the definition becomes any different", he has denied having joined the church of scientology, saying "I am a Christian. I am a student of all religions, and I respect all people and all paths." <- makes no sense? You can't have it all ways. There is only one way to true salvation. Again. SAD.

Happy 69th Bday Chuck Norris!

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 04:30:26 GMT

To the man, The Legend, Chuck Norris! The man is 69.

http://movies.yahoo.com/feature/buzz-log-chuck-norris.html

=). The Best.